Nerd Pride Radio

Before my friend died in 2018, his wife talked about how much he liked this song, and how awful the lines "God it's so painful/Something that's so close/And still so far out of reach" had become. This song will mean that to me forever.

The song just came on a Sopranos episode we're watching. Fuck.

Still listening to my happy Christian song, Pneuma, and also Michelle Branch, Everywhere. Had missed some pretty cool things about that song, but enjoyed going back and hearing it again, along with other songs of hers. The phone wants me to know that people even cover her songs, who knew? I wish I liked her most recent album more because overall I think she's a great artist, but that last one felt a little flat comparatively. So yeah, a day of all that old-time religion, so far.

Lots going on today, so a little soothing music in order tonight.
Update: awoke with migraine! Aaaagh!

I honestly need to hear more, I've listened to the album just once and thought fine.

I'm working on enjoying Bon Iver, who really hit my anxiety -- and my jealousy -- but admit it's some really good stuff. When I can truly sit in it, and listen no judgements, it's some great stuff. This one in particular I keep coming back to:



Justin Vernon's soulful emotive voice and the experiments and mood involved, make me feel Bon Iver should be considered more modern "soul" music then they are. It often sounds to me in the same genre as Solange's "When I Get Home" but on wikipedia they share no similarities. One is listed as "chamber folk, experimental, folktronica" and the other 'R&B, jazz, psychedelic soul, funk, hip hop, new-age-trap." Or, maybe even more aptly, like Sampha, who gets genre'd as "electronic, alternative R&B, neo soul." Is there a rhyme or reason, other than the color of their skin, for not giving Bon Iver the soul label or the others a folktronica label? Probably not. Or maybe my ears don't pick up on the subtle but major differences.

Just some Nat King Cole for a rainy Friday at work.

A classic! I was going to post this music song below but then got dostracybyvthe one below it:
Let me add warningvthag the video has some trouvlibgomebts, like maybe you don't want to see! People hurt by people or something:


This is one about JOY right? That's the thing. He's full of joy. I get that. Joy! So I as pleasantly vibing, as my kid says, she says I am always "vibing" in a good way, lol. I have that going for me. So o got distracted because other people sang this and it had been a whilez so there I was, brain undefended:

I am still on the K-Pop bandwagon...
A lot of catchy simply tunes. Pleasing even if there's only a smattering of English.

Hellooooo Pete, as I am sick as a dog I happened to be in bed in time to turn on the Oscars, and any fan of Janelle Monae will want to see her performance although it is kind of sad and unfortunate that she's singing about the Oscars. Her talent is just phenomenal - one of these days she is going to have that huge pop hit and blow up even bigger.

Hell yeah she's a star! I was putting the kids to bed and was worried I'd never get to see this so so glad, thanks!

Also a rewrite of her song Come Aliveeeee!

Pete making me live my Monday in 1985!!!

You're welcome!

In ther'py one thing we're working on is visualization + music meditations. I pick 5 relaxing scenes and 5 relaxing images and pair them together for 5 minutes.

I originally picked Philip Glass' "The Grid" but because I'm off subscriptions right now, I couldn't get it on my phone unless I bought the whole Koyaanisqatsi album. But luckilly, 10 years ago I bought Anthem 1 + 3 from Amazon, and forgot how good they are.

I was originally a fan of Anthem Part 3, but I think I now like Part 1 best, because it's such a beautiful slow-build, and has that awesome drone in there too. A great mix of spiritual, meditative, and inspiring AND was featured in Truman Show in the revolving door scene, where he finally realizes something's up!


and in action...

My source of K=Poppy happiness this Wednesday (my Monday)





I… how can I say this? Mm..
For a very long time, I’ve
Li..li..liked you
If I tell you this now, what will change?
With your heart, nothing will change
Like a tree with roots that are too deep under
Like a flower that God has carefully made
Don’t disappear, don’t change

Even though I like you, nobody knows
Even when I see other girls, nobody’s like you
I’m sorry for having no courage
You can laugh at me all you want

I’m a loser who loves you
Yes, I’m a misery
To you, I’m a nuisance, I’m an outsider
But in this world, I only need you

Baby I’m only yours oh oh oh
I’m only yours oh oh no
In the end, I’m
In front of love, I’m always a loser

I.. how can I say this?
I still like you a lot
Why can’t I say that? I’m like a defeated child
Mm… don’t date anyone else

Don’t do things that make my heart crumble
I am too much for you, who has no openings?
My empty heart is like an empty lot but my head is bursting
When did my heart become like this?

Even though I like you, nobody knows
Even when I see other girls, nobody’s like you
I’m sorry for having no courage
You can laugh at me all you want

I’m a loser who loves you
Yes, I’m a misery
To you, I’m a nuisance, I’m an outsider
But in this world, I only need you

Baby I’m only yours oh oh oh
I’m only yours oh oh no
In the end, I’m
In front of love, I’m always a loser

It’s Yuto
You become my memories, I get strength just looking at you
The sky is shining, I hope my heart reaches you
Even if I don’t say it, know know know
It’s always you in my heart
I want to walk with the beautiful you

Everybody knows, I have something to tell you
Listen to my heart but I get so nervous in front of you
Yes love you love you love you
Like you like you like you
I love you

I’m a loser who loves you
Yes, I’m a misery
To you, I’m a nuisance, I’m an outsider
But in this world, I only need you

(Everybody says) you and me
(My baby) close your eyes, what should I do?
(Kiss kiss) butterfly
Now I’m
Always gonna shine in front of your love

wow, slow news day I guess, nobody's music but mine today?

E'Dawn now has his own group after being removed from Pentagon by the corporate owners for Dating HyunA, a singer from another KPOP group



No one can give an answer, we can’t see the end
We fight every day, it’s not ok
Because I want it so bad, it’s worth it
Just like before, I’ll just have to pay the price for you
Money, I want you
Above all, I just want you, money
Money, I hate you
You’re clearly dirty but why do you shine?

I wanna have you go higher
Who can fill my empty heart?
I want to ask my parents but they’re sleeping
If I can’t buy happiness with money
How can I live?
Can I even live?
Don’t tell me typical answers, I can’t relate
Is this right? Don’t you be a liar
If I ask for a gift containing the answer, am I selfish?

Dirty money dirty, you shine
Instead of looking at you, I wanna have you
Dirty money dirty, you shine
Instead of being dishonorable, I wanna live in luxury

What is it, it shines
The same light as the sun
It’s disgusting, the view from the back
I like the shadows, I’m afraid of places with light
Just let go of me, I wanna turn around
But I think I need you
Wanna go back to the times before I knew you
But I think I need you

I wanna have you go higher
Who can fill my empty heart?
I want to ask my parents but they’re sleeping
If I can’t buy happiness with money
How can I live?
Can I even live?
Don’t tell me typical answers, I can’t relate
Is this right? Don’t you be a liar
If I ask for a gift containing the answer, am I selfish?

Dirty money dirty, you shine
Instead of looking at you, I wanna have you
Dirty money dirty, you shine
Instead of being dishonorable, I wanna live in luxury

I don’t need you
I don’t need you
I don’t need you
I don’t need you

You shine

This type of video is growing on me because it gives lyrics and who sings them as well as subbed lyrics

When there are 10 of them you need it! For singing turns out I like Jinho, but for fashion how could anyone best the metallic breathing strip dude up there?!

Thank you for inadvertently solving a problem for me: once my daughter sees that the lead singer of a K-pop boy band is wearing exactly the same eyeshadow look she has been sporting lately, I think she will abandon it. This is a thing with many ladies at the moment. I don't mind I just hate that color. Use purple or something else.