Had several bourbons, but feel pretty good tonight. Things with the family have improved, and wife got me a superb bottle of bourbon.

Still hate myself, but external circumstances are somewhat better.

BUT IT'S NOT YOU, it's a super difficult job. Don't blame yourself because your job is super hard; I am positive that it would stress me out in a serious way. Two thoughts: First, I had no idea how stressful and exhausting teaching would be until I started. It's fucking hard. Second it is my fault:...

Not sure why I bother trying to teach.

I may have posted this before; I don't remember. Oh well.

Know what you want
Now to find out just what you'll be settling for
The time passing faster than ever before

Your responses are far too rational for my demented psyche.

Never killed anyone, or ate anyone. It’s mostly not guilt; it’s mostly desperately wanting two things, and failing at both. And failing at both because other people were clearly better than me. And realizing that my fucked up life is the best i can do, and that’s pathetic. And I’m not sure I live a ...

Neal Peart

First the meeting went reasonably well--I successfully fooled him into thinking I'm a mediocre teacher. I think you're right about just learning to live with it after 25 years; the problem is that it hurts like crazy. Nothing happened (which was the problem); she never wronged me and I don't think I...

Jimmy Cliff

I somehow missed the "The Harder They Come" reference.

I get to go to a post-observation conference with an admin in about 10 minutes. Given that I suck at teaching, I'm not looking forward to it.

Van Morrison?
U2?

Abba
the Bee Gees

How nice for you - I had a similar tiny spark of joy just now, which is why I clicked the little X and decided this website here was a far more pleasant accompaniment to the coffee. I have found the way out of that was straight through, honestly. This sounds so trite, but whatever problem seems to ...

I hate social media tonight. Just got a gut punch reminding me of how I’m a fuck up. And posted by the person i wish I’d never met.

I wasn't hurt, but I suppose it was possible. I don't know how common such things are in other schools--I've only worked in one district--and it's not frequent thing, but it happens. I think I probably break up fights 2-3 times a year. There are also fights that I don't get involved in--if the stude...

Helped to prevent a fight by getting between the 2 would-be fighters. One of the students shoved me repeatedly to try to get past me.

I think that maybe the best thing Iran could do would be to pressure the Iraqi government to actually get the U.S. to leave Iraq.

Happy birthday!

Iran fired missiles at a U.S. base in Iraq.

It snowed a bit here today.

I have a student from Jamaica. Until today, she'd never seen snow.